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John MacDougall

John MacDougall is the Spiritual Care Coordinator at The Retreat.

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It’s Ok to Be Sad at Christmas, If We Have Something to Be Sad About

[fa icon="calendar'] Nov 30, 2018 6:12:23 PM / by John MacDougall posted in Christmas, Holiday Season

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This month, there are a lot of “service pieces” in magazines and newspapers with helpful advice about how to not be sad at the holidays of Christmas and Hanukkah. These well-meaning columns have suggestions on how to change our moods and move away from sadness. However, I have a theory that having feelings that match reality is mental health, not mental illness.

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“If I Recover, Who Will I Be?”

[fa icon="calendar'] Nov 14, 2018 9:30:00 AM / by John MacDougall posted in Recovery, recovering alcoholics, The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, Alcoholics Anonymous, addiction

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I never asked this question when I was getting sober, but I have heard other people ask it. I thought they were raising unreasonable objections to getting sober or expressing resistance to recovery. Over the years, patients at Hazelden and guests at The Retreat have spoken of their reluctance to recover by saying that they are afraid to recover, because they are afraid of who they might be if they stop drinking or drugging. What will happen, they ask, if they get sober and don’t like themselves, or don’t like who they have become?

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Humility involves always being open to new learning.

[fa icon="calendar'] Oct 1, 2018 9:19:41 PM / by John MacDougall posted in integrity, abuse, god-conscious, faith-based recovery, rehabilitation

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When I was a boy, I eagerly read each issue of Mad Magazine. It’s fictional editor, Alfred E. Neuman, had a quote above the index of each issue. One of my favorites was “Some minds are like concrete: all mixed up and permanently set.” A Peanuts cartoon of that era had Lucy shouting “If you can’t be right, be wrong at the top of your voice.” I’m writing this newsletter during the Senate hearings on a Supreme Court nomination. It seems as if nearly everyone is sure that they know what happened at a high school party long ago: the nominee is guilty, or innocent, depending upon whom you ask. I’m not hearing the more humble opinion of “I don’t know, I wasn’t there.”

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Evaluating Our Own Sobriety

[fa icon="calendar'] Aug 22, 2018 9:30:00 AM / by John MacDougall posted in Alcoholics Anonymous, The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, 12 step program, 4th Step, 5th Step, 10th Step

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Alcoholism is a disease of self-deception. We can be taking all twelve steps, and still avoid the spiritual growth of the program. “Remember” the Big Book says, “that we deal with alcohol---cunning, baffling, and powerful! Without help it is too much for us. But there is One who has all power—that One is God. May you find Him now!” (p.58-59)

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Alcoholics Anonymous Has A “Safety Card” Because We Are Making Spiritual Progress

[fa icon="calendar'] Jul 25, 2018 10:00:00 AM / by John MacDougall posted in Alcoholics Anonymous, AA, AA meetings, The AA Safety Card

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The A.A. Big Book, on page 60, states “The point is, that we are willing to grow along spiritual lines. The principles we have set down are guides to progress. We claim spiritual progress rather than spiritual perfection.”

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“Could We Have A Moment of Silence….”

[fa icon="calendar'] Jun 27, 2018 10:26:24 AM / by John MacDougall posted in Alcoholics Anonymous, alcoholism

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At many AA meetings, somewhere in the program, a person asks “Could we have a moment of silence for the alcoholic who still suffers?” We are briefly quiet, perhaps thinking of someone we know whose suffering is all too clear to us. I also think of those whose suffering is over because they lost their lives in a struggle with alcohol or drugs.

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Rehab Is Something They Do to Us. Recovery Is Something That Happens Among Us with God and Our Fellowship

[fa icon="calendar'] May 30, 2018 12:33:57 PM / by John MacDougall posted in Alcoholics Anonymous, The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, rehabilitation

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I worked 20 years in Rehab, and for a long time, I saw it do a lot of people a lot of good. As rehab has evolved over the years, it has moved from an introduction into the Twelve Steps of Alcoholics Anonymous into a medical, medication, and mental illness model of treatment. The old model was “one drunk helping another over a cup of coffee.”   I remember when there was a sign at the admissions entrance of my old rehab that said “AA Members Always Welcome”. I remember when my first morning staff meeting would tip the phones off the hook so they wouldn’t ring. We would shut the door and spend 20 minutes in prayer and meditation for the spiritual well-being of the unit. We would read from “Twenty-Four Hours a Day” and “As Bill Sees It.” The unit supervisor used to say “The patients will always reflect the spiritual well-being of the staff” and “They won’t get better than we are.” We thought of our unit as one recovering community.

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We Don’t Need A “White Light” To Get Sober

[fa icon="calendar'] May 2, 2018 9:30:00 AM / by John MacDougall posted in sobriety, Alcoholics Anonymous, The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, bill wilson

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I have had a misunderstanding about Bill Wilson’s “White Light” experience in Towns Hospital in 1934. I got my impression of that evening from watching a movie with an actor portraying Bill W’s experience. In the movie there is a supernatural experience, complete with a blinding white light and a rushing wind, a combination of a science fiction movie and a horror movie in its special effects.

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Recovery Is Not Sexually Transmitted

[fa icon="calendar'] Mar 28, 2018 9:30:00 AM / by John MacDougall posted in relationships during recovery, recovery tools, recovery process

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Every morning at The Retreat I look at the in-house email. It tells me who has the day off, the lunch menu for the day, and any special events. It tells the number of admissions and discharges at The Retreat, and how many guests we have. It also lists the number of openings in the six sober houses that The Retreat owns and operates in Saint Paul. Usually the number of openings is “0”.

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Becoming God-Conscious

[fa icon="calendar'] Feb 28, 2018 9:30:00 AM / by John MacDougall posted in faith-based recovery, god-conscious, Alcoholics Anonymous, alcohol addiction, drug addiction, The Big Book of Alcoholics Anonymous, AA

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One of the great opportunities of living the program of Alcoholics Anonymous is our ability to become “God-Conscious.” Because our alcoholism is a brain disease, our brains reset themselves every night in our sleep to “alcoholic”. I find that I need to set my brain back every morning to “sober”.

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