Beliefs: My Beliefs and Yours.

[fa icon="calendar"] Jan 19, 2017 12:41:02 PM / by Sherry Gaugler-Stewart


“As a child of God, I am all I need to be – loving, lovable, and splendid.”  --Courage to Change, p.143

Alcoholism taught me a lot of false truths from a young age.  When my father left to be with a woman he met in a bar, I believed I must not be very important.  When my mother was unhappy when her marriage ended, I believed I must have done something wrong that caused this.  When my marriage to my ex-husband ended because he didn’t stop drinking, I believed I was unlovable.

When these beliefs got triggered, they all had behaviors affiliated with them.  When I felt unimportant, I would either hide from the world for a bit, or I would take some action that would make me feel important, at least for a little while.  I would put all of my time and energy into the job I had back then, and receive my bonus or pat on the head, which would make me feel important momentarily. Then something else would happen, and I’d go back to feeling like I wasn’t quite “enough”. 

When I felt like I had done something wrong, I would go into “fix it” mode – even if the situation wasn’t mine to fix.  Feeling unlovable had me acquiescing to other people’s whims, or looking for love in places where there was no love to be found.  I wasn’t aware of any of these beliefs that I had been carrying around, but they were leading me along the path of my life.

It’s not unusual for family members of alcoholics or addicts to hold onto beliefs that are not serving them.  Many people believe that if they had done something differently, they would have been able to change the trajectory their loved one is on, and could have circumvented addiction.  If only they had noticed sooner.  If only they had a different parenting style.  If only they were more loving.  If only they had better boundaries.  Sometimes we get so caught up in the false beliefs that we can’t see the truth at all.  We take responsibility for someone else’s alcoholism or addiction, and spend all our time and energy doing whatever it takes to attempt to break through the disease.  Somewhere deep down inside we believe that if only we were lovable, or more important to them, or hadn’t done anything wrong that they would have found a way to stop.

One of the opportunities in recovery is to look at things with a new perspective.  We get to start practicing awareness around what’s driving us.  We get to get in touch with our motivations.  We get to decide whether or not we are showing up like the people we would like to be.  And, we get to look at our belief systems.

Not only do many of us carry around beliefs that we don’t know are there, but we also carry around beliefs that aren’t ours.  We let our families, friends, and society determine what we believe.  We grab on to other’s beliefs without question.  Sometimes someone interjects a belief into our system, and we’re too overwhelmed to do anything but let it in.

I remember being a teen, and having a conversation where I was told “You are never going to get a man that way!”  I can’t remember the context of the conversation, but I remember who it was with and where we were at the time.  This moment in time has been inscribed in my mind.  I didn’t question the statement.  I just took it and ran with it, and let it wreak havoc on my life by allowing their statement to dictate how I approached relationships, rather than approaching them in a way that was authentic to me.

When we take stock of our underlying beliefs, we get to make a decision: do I want to continue to hold onto this, or replace it with something else?  Is there something I can replace it with that is better suited to who I am?  Is there something that I can replace this with that will serve me better than the old belief has?

I found that once I started looking at the truth about what was running me, I found some other disconnects.  I had stated that I believed in a Higher Power, but my behavior was rooted in trying to control outcomes in my life and in the lives of those I loved.  Especially where addiction was concerned, this disconnect was making me miserable.  I’ve been told it was making those around me miserable, as well.

Although the process felt a little insurmountable at first, I found support in the tools provided in recovery, and from the other family members who were willing to look at their underlying triggers, too.  This opportunity allowed me to live in my values, and my integrity, and to diminish the fear driven by my old belief system.  Life is much easier when walked in the truth.


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Sherry Gaugler-Stewart

Written by Sherry Gaugler-Stewart

Director of Family and Spiritual Recovery

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